January 17th 2008
Been feeling an odd ache in my back so of course the mind games begin. Aleve seems to take care of it so it can't be that bad right?
We are going to Disney in 2 weeks so I'm starting to focus on that and hope no one gets sick or no major snow storms hit.
I'm torn as to whether I should use the "cancer card" to get access to the areas on the rides where you can sit instead of stand in line. I'm also considering renting a scooter just to save energy. DH feels that "wouldn't be right". I feel that way sometimes and then think "Hey! I have Cancer. Hello! Who else deserves to ride around on a freakin scooter more than me!"
In the end, I'll probably walk like everyone else. I have this fear that if I make too many concessions for my cancer, it will give it life.
New PET/CT scans are due at the end of Feb. so ,of course, nothing can change until after our Disney trip. I don't care if I'm coughing up blood and dragging myself on the floor. I'm getting on that plane to see the Mouse!